money's

i need money.

not QUITE making enough at the moment to support myself, AND afford my studio.
fortunatly Andrew has lent me a lot in order to get the studio up and running.
But still, would like some more in come.
Problem is I lack the motivation to actually do it.


You ever feel like you're going backwards?
Like life has regressed back into what it once was, which was a state you were so happy to get out of the first time, and just can't handle it going back that way.
Almost like everything you've worked for for the past few years has been a waste of time?
....hint.

perhaps I came back from Rarotonga too early.

Hmm, probably not actually, I like my life here...clothes actually dry in this country.
Ah, all in all i'm just not happy at the moment.

it would be a great time for writing, although I'd write a bunch of songs which I'd regret writing later because if I write them in pain, then that's all i'll feel when I play them.
AHHH!....stupid emotions/heart.

okay, rant over...got to work.