money's

i need money.

not QUITE making enough at the moment to support myself, AND afford my studio.
fortunatly Andrew has lent me a lot in order to get the studio up and running.
But still, would like some more in come.
Problem is I lack the motivation to actually do it.


You ever feel like you're going backwards?
Like life has regressed back into what it once was, which was a state you were so happy to get out of the first time, and just can't handle it going back that way.
Almost like everything you've worked for for the past few years has been a waste of time?
....hint.

perhaps I came back from Rarotonga too early.

Hmm, probably not actually, I like my life here...clothes actually dry in this country.
Ah, all in all i'm just not happy at the moment.

it would be a great time for writing, although I'd write a bunch of songs which I'd regret writing later because if I write them in pain, then that's all i'll feel when I play them.
AHHH!....stupid emotions/heart.

okay, rant over...got to work.

On our way.

Recently I've found myself with a lot of time to kill, long story.

i decided that during this time I should to plan out an album of sorts.
I've got all the gear, enough materiel (skill's getting there) and time enough to record.
All i lack now is a decent drummer.

I know I've been promising people an album for about a year now, but THIS time it's gonna happen I promise!

I don't fully know what to call it, i guess i don't want to name it too early.
I like the hopeless names, because it shows more clearly the amazing-ness of what God's done in my life...the whole contrast creating meaning thing.
I.E. if you'd never tasted a lemon you wouldn't appreciate the sweetness of sugar as much.

Unfortunately i seem to have fallen into this image of some guy in an old leather jacket hanging out in a barn with this acoustic!
I don't personally think that my music sounds like this, BUT the image is there and it's kind of annoying me. I'd much rather the slick imagery of some guy in a practise room with his band, dressed in a smart but not flashy T-Shirt with jeans on.
Something where the sounds of saturated delay fits.

Any way, for this i need a drummer! Oh and some charts, but that's my fault that I don't have any yet.

i think i might be asking a little too much in a drummer right a the moment.
I would LOVE some one who's gone through Jazz School....problem is I have zero credit to my name, so noone that good would want to be in my band.
Perhaps I should just go with who ever is willing.

Lyrics seem to be escaping me too. It kinda sucks. But oh well, they'll come back I hope.
Plenty more walks around the city should do it.
Perhaps I need to find another concept...although this will not be a concept album I'm afraid, just can't get my head around it! I really need some kind of music writing software perhaps.

come to think of it, i haven't ever graphed this!!! Wow, that's not like me.

okay that's step one. Graphing!

I will post when i know more.

Enjoy,

Jonny.