The Reckoner

Ah man

okay it's finally hit

I have all of 16 days left in this country.

So many things in my head right now, and the only song that I can think of to kinda sum up how I feel, is The Reckoner from Radiohead's latest album In Rainbows (they have a song for every occasion).

I wish I could draw, so you could see my expression of excited depression as i sip out of my overly round glass. Wishing it was wine. Wishing it was cold. Wishing I could take my friends with me.

Dedicated to coming back, to leaving, to making good of it.
Enabled to all, but some how helpless.
it'll come too soon.
it'll come, that's the scary part.

i wish it wouldn't happen
but it'll be a one off experience
something I can't be me with out
I'll be changed

I know around the corner it'll be me
I know I'm me now, but I'll be different
some how
I hate good byes

it's only for a year,
it's not really good bye
no reason to hate it
no reason at all

Embrace what you have
make it work for you
let the change happen

it'll happen
nothing I can do now
but it's for the best
I'll enjoy it
but i'll miss you all



Hmm, might try writing that into a song
I was just kinda typing and seeing what came out...and that's what happened.

Any way, i must go plan my last 16 days

jonny.